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today I listened to the song by tim hughes- everything.

Then in the middle of the song I felt my eyes start to water. It was a video on youtube which wasn't the most amazing video or anything at all, yet tears just came rolling down my face. Could it be the beauty and truth of His word that is affecting me? maybe.

I don't understand what is happening to me. I haven't cried for years and years until emily's demon incident. God must be doing something in me...

Everytime I feel tears coming or the need to cry, I think of that Starfiled song All for you.

What is it in me
That hangs on for so long
Why do I fight the tears that come?
I work so hard to
Keep in control when
All that I want is to let go

I guess we'll see what happens to me.

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